Even though the top left picture speaks to me the most, I’m going to try to write something for the bottom left picture.
There is always these books, songs and movies that are about jumping into life. They try to encourage people to be the person who is jumping into the water without a care in the world. They try to tell you how life is going to go by quickly and how you don’t want to miss out on all the adventures.
Nicole always agreed with them but that didn’t always change her behaviour. She was more likely to be the person who was watching stunned from the sidelines. She was envious of people who had that kind of energy and that lack of fear.She read the stories about people who were in fatal car accidents or people who were diagnosed with cancer or Alzheimer’s early in life and how they would think back on their life with the “what if” and the regrets.
Nicole didn’t exactly work like that though. She never thought that she would regret not being in the spotlight because that’s not who she was. And if she was trying to be that person who was jumping in the middle, all of her friends would know that she was out of place. That she was trying to be something that she’s not.
Sometimes she would travel on her own. And for those few days with those few people, she could pretend to be someone else. She could pretend to be the spontaneous fun-loving girl who didn’t make plans of what she was going to be doing on her travels. And for those 72 hours, it was the most fun. But after that, she would go back home to her friends and be the person that she knew she was supposed to be.
Everyone has their own personality and their own way of living life to the fullest. What some people would think is a dream vacation others might feel like it was a waste of time. Nicole was someone who liked to have the balance of free and structured time. Nicole had a few friends who would take up the spotlight and she was more than willing to let them do that. There can only be one star in a play but there still needs to be a number of supporting roles. And everyone’s play is a little bit different – a star in one play can be the villain in another.
Living in the moment doesn’t exactly mean living in the center of attention. It means finding quality in each experience. And maybe not spending every night in bed by 10 p.m..
Nicole found meaning in making a lot of her own decorations for her home. She was usually the person that would give a hand-made gift for birthdays or holidays but you only knew it was handmade because it was from her, the quality was not a give away at all. She liked to reuse things. She liked to put a lot of thought into her gifts… find a new purpose for something that others would throw away.
I think the reason that the top left picture speaks to me most is because I typically enjoy spending time on my own. I would not go so far as to describe myself as an introvert but with the nature of my job, sometimes I just like to try to be alone on a day off. I also usually struggle with getting large groups of people together which might be why I wasn’t automatically drawn to the picture that I used for the inspiration of this little story. Obviously not very strong but just trying to get some writing in today.